We had another babybond scan on Monday.
It’s getting hard to make excuses for our sonogram addiction, so I won’t. We love seeing our little baby and each time we feel a little bit closer to ‘flump’ and even more amazed that we actually created this tiny little life.
This time was even more amazing as we got to see so much more detail. We saw our baby’s nose and eyelids and her lips. Her profile is so cute that I never want to forget just how beautiful it looked the first time I saw it.
The sonographer showed us her heart, stomach and liver all working properly. We also saw her spine and her diaphragm. It’s all where it should be and even though we’ve had our 20 week scan, it’s reassuring to see it again in so much detail.
About half way into the scan as the sonographer was checking Flump’s feet she paused and said “Ok, which one of you has got a gap between your big toe and the rest of your toes?”. I grinned like an idiot and Debbie threw me a look that could not only kill, but it would resurrect just to kill again.
It’s worth mentioning here that Debbie hates my feet. I mean, she really hates them. I have a small gap between my big toe and the rest of my toes. My toe nails have a gratuitously arrogant curve to them. Debbie likes to call them ‘claws’. I think they are fine as far as feet go, but I’m no foot connoisseur.
On screen we can see the frozen image of our beautiful baby’s foot. It looks exactly like mine. I am filled with pride. My DNA has been passed on, cloven hooves and all. For a moment I am filled with the full realisation that we’re not looking at a baby on a screen, we’re looking at our baby.
This feeling grows as we see her nose and her lips. I can’t help but to wonder who she takes after. For a few seconds I see her completely. My mind filling in the gaps from the grainy image. It takes my breath away and it makes me want her even more. I swallow a rising lump in my throat.
All too soon it’s over. We get to take away the DVD; a hard copy as back-up for the beauty in my memory.
I am stunned. We are having a baby. Our baby. We created a life. Ours will never be the same again. I am excited and the warmth within extends to my fingertips.
Each time I look down and see my feet, I can’t help but to smile.
You can see both the unedited version of the scan and a little edited version set to some music. Debbie isn’t a fan of the song, but I really love it. I don’t find it miserable or depressing but rather uplifting and ethereal; a perfect companion to the image it supports.